why do i get so fucking annoyed and pissy and everything when i wake up shitty? or really when i wake up on my own when someone was supposed to call me to wake me. I mean it makes sense when i say/type it i guess and i shouldn’t apologize for my feelings and i’m not. I just don’t know why I get as mad as i do and it kind of bothers me.
I’m bleeding so heavy tonight. ugh wtf!? I really hope it doesn’t continue like this any longer than tonight.
I fucking hate you so much!! I can’t express it enough. You’re the most pathetic, useless, retarded, excuse for a fucking mother and all around human being. You steal, you lie, you cheat, you’re quiet and sneaky and have no remorse for any of the fucked up shit you do to everyone in this house! You have no fucking sympathy or soul. All I see you as is a wasteful, low-life, piece of rotting flesh, because that’s exactly what you are! My mom was going downstairs into your room to find the batteries you STOLE from her right after she bought them, and she found a huge fucking wad of money in an envelope FULL of money. Over a thousand. Maybe two. You don’t buy food for your daughter, you NEVER pay me AT ALL for WATCHING YOUR DAUGHTER, you never say thank you, you never do anything, you don’t pitch in, you don’t buy your own food, my mom struggles every fucking month with the rent and your selfish ass has thousands just chillin’, hiding in your room. I really have never hated anyone before I have come to knowing you, and it’s honestly sad. I don’t physically fight, but I sure want to mawl your face to shreds sometimes. A lot of the time….. hah. Fuck you.
I’m so aggravated. I wish some people were stronger and coild actually follow through with what they say. I wish more people were honest and i wish more people were trusting. I hate how it’s like everyone is so caught up in looking so perfect but in reality everyone sees how fucking pathetic they’re being, solely because of the fact we know how you truly are. It’s sickening. Someone tells me one thing, does another, doesn’t care, only talks to me when they have problems or needs a place to stay, and never even takes my advice. How about I’M DONE with that dumb shit.
I wasn’t sure if you could handle it,
but since you’re so eager to hear it,
and since I’m a terrible liar,
you should know that every time
you do as little as look at me,
I can feel my dignity fall to the ground.
I’d stand in the bitter cold for hours
if that meant you would stay warm.
I’d rather gouge my own eyes out
than to see you fall for someone else.
And it wasn’t until you left,
when I realized that I have
a terribly addictive personality.
I’m sorry, my love.
I hope that wasn’t too much.
Because, in all honesty,
that wasn’t even
the half of it."
You make me so sick, I want to take you by the head and bash it into the floor a good ten to twenty times. Maybe then some sense would be knicked into you. Only a piece of shit parent would give their child cake and a lolly pop first thing in the morning when they a.) Dont brush her teeth, b.) Wont make a dentist appointment and c.) Her child already has her teeth rotting. I can’t even fathom any of this horse shit